I am less than amused

I am no longer the center of attention and its really starting to upset me. I am acting strangely and even though I know I'm doing it, I can't stop myself. I am following Miri and Tom around a lot more now and I don't like it when they leave. I really made Miri upset yesterday when she left. I ran out in the hall and down the stairwell. She had to chase me with the leash and collar with Ben in the carseat all the while. It looked like it was heavy and awkward to do all that - I felt bad about it but I was sad they were leaving without me. Also I need to protect that baby now that he is here. They would be so sad if something happened and I am so powerful and imposing that I could definitely make sure he stays safe.

I miss being the number 1 girl. I am not sure when Ill get over this if ever. I hope I do because I want to be back to my normal self again. I must find a better therapist. Its so hard to find a good one these days - especially one that takes my insurance.